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Even though I knew in my heart last Friday that I was losing the baby and was sure I would receive that same information on Tuesday from the doctor. When I didn't, I got my hopes up. So at 3:20 yesterday afternoon, when I finally got the results in from my lab work I crashed - hard! My levels had dropped quiet a bit which was what I expected to hear on Tuesday. I have still been bleeding and having some pretty sever pains that they tell me can continue for another week or more. It all feels like a pretty cruel joke right now. But at least I know.

On a happy note - my new niece arrived last night. Sydney Elise. I haven't met her yet, but I plan on going to the hospital in a little while to get my first peek at her. What a bitter sweet day it was.

And then this morning, for the first time in a couple of weeks, Emma came and got in bed with us. She cuddled up next to me (which I loved) and was just jibber jabbering. She then asked me what that noise was. I had not heard anything. She then tells me it was God. Okay I thought. She started to get all excited and she sits up and says "Mommy, look. It's the Angels." The smile on her face was incredible. I don't know what she saw, but she talked about seeing them off and on all morning.

I want to thank all of you again for all of the prayers you have lifted up on my behalf. The healing process begins now both for my heart and my body. I haven't decided what to do next. I still have a lot of praying of my own to do :-)