A mommy's frustration!

It is FRIDAY!!!!

I don't know about anyone else, but this has been a VERY long week. Sunday is always busy with church and lunch and trying to finish whatever household chores did not get finished on Saturday. And then comes Monday! Monday in and of itself is bad enough, but add to it a job that can be stressful and then you have to go to Lowe's with your husband to finally pick out a ceiling fan. (Who knew that a ceiling fan would take multiple trips and LOTS of discussion?) On top of that your child (who you previously thought of as beautiful) has now been possessed by demons and is letting not only you know it but everybody in Lowe's know it. This demon induced fit lasted until she went to bed!!! By the time we got her and ourselves fed and home and her in bed I was exhausted. Tuesday was somewhat better - at least Emma was once again my beautiful little girl. She enjoyed her little 'date' with Mack when we got home and once we went inside she ate and played. And then there was Wednesday.......Steven had to leave at the crack of dawn and wasn't going to be home until late. Emma's good mood from the night before did not make it through the night. She woke up cranky, she threw a fit when I dropped her off at the sitters and picked it up again once I went to get her after work. Nothing I did made her happy, not even if I did exactly what she asked for. Apparently, the demons had returned! Once again, it continued for hours. She finally stopped when she literally fell over asleep in my lap. Steven came home to find me still sitting there holding her. He thought it was sweet! HA!!!! Now Thursday I must admit was pretty good. I still had to go to work, but Emma was in a good mood when I picked her up and once I told her she was going to get to play with Natalie Kate she was really happy! She played good and didn't throw any fits (thank you Lord!), even when Steven came and it was time for her to go home. She fell asleep on the way and Steven was able to get her changed and into bed with no complaints. (Some people have all the luck!) Then we come to Friday. She woke up crying, but was content when I went and got her. She stayed pretty happy all morning while we were getting ready, until I asked her if she was ready to go to Grandma's house. She immediately hugs my neck and tells me "NO. Stay home" , at which point I feel like a real loser! I didn't want to go to work anyway, and now my daughter is actually telling me that she wants to stay home. Luckily, Steven was dropping her off today because I don't think I could have done it.

I only get a few hours with her each day as it is, and a lot of that time she is tired, fussy, cranky, and sometimes like Monday even demon possessed. Not to mention that there is dinner to fix and laundry to still do and dishes to wash. Yesterday when I dropped her off, I was actually jealous of my mother-in-law for getting to spend the entire day with my daughter. It was horrible and I hate feeling that way. I am SO lucky that Emma has a Grandma that wants to and is able to take care of her during the day.

Tonight Steven and I are going out on a date (we are going to see 'You're A Good Man, Charlie Brown' at the Capital Arts) and Emma is going to see her Uncle Scooter and Aunt Nee and play with Ethan. That will make her very happy. But since I will have worked all day and we are going out, I won't get to spend much time with her. I know that we need time for us, away from our child, to be adults and to be a couple. But it is so hard sometimes.

I pray next week will go better. I am taking a little time off of work the end of the week. I am taking Emma to Berea to spend a little quality time with her Mimi while Papa is working. Then Friday night they are going to come here for the week-end. It will be hectic, but it will be worth it! And it will be a great Mother's Day gift for me to be able to spend it with my Mom!

You know.................. I feel better now! I just had to get it all out! I know that it will continue to be frustrating at times, but mixed in with all of that are some really good times and opportunities to make some great memories! I know that God will never give me more than I can handle. I just have to remind myself of that sometimes!